Nowhere

By : micheyetakata

Time never rest;

always on the move 

so beware 

if you are not aware 

it might slipped out from your grasp–

you lost time 

Then all at once, 

present become past 

future become present 

you become past 

he become present 

us no longer exists 

Pile of dreams shattered 

into dust and nowhere to be

found, nowhere to be 

reminisced, nowhere 

I can find you again, nowhere–

we lost and vanished 

together with the time

 

Support System

By: Nana

         

     Coming from the story of an ordinary human being, just like you. She is currently an extra in other people's stories but remains optimistic with her convictions. She sometimes dreams of becoming the world's main character and surrenders to the world's harshness. Maybe those currently walking in the void while believing that "God exists." filled every footstep walking with doubts. she  could say that he almost gave up on his life, and finally, the word 'almost' became the word 'often.'

    Who was born initially in a cypress family, in the end, had to feel heartbroken by a daughter's 'first love.' Does she care? Maybe in other people's eyes, he doesn't care. But does anyone know? She whispered to her pillow on a third of the night. She shared her tears with her hoarse voice, which was almost desperate. The heartbreak left an invisible scar on her soul. She allows her soul to be consumed by a pain that doesn't even have a cure. How can she trust others when her 'first love' left this invisible scar? How did she survive? When she looks in the mirror, she again says, "is it me"? Why can I survive" many have dialed even though she doesn't understand; why can she survive?

    Other people might interpret the support system as another human who provides support, but not for her. She can survive because of the non-human support system she has. Dreams, ideas, ego, and even revenge can be a sound support system for the right people. Where she can now survive is no longer for his family, no longer for her friends but really for her life. To defend her ego, achieve her goals, and prove that she can be without the mental destroyer under the guise of family. Is she selfish? What is more important than yourself? What is more valuable than yourself? Are there people who are not selfish? If she doesn't think about himself, does anyone else think about him?

    It was a long journey to get to this point. The point where she wanted to share the story through short writings that might mean nothing. When she looked back, she was so proud of himself that she got through it all. All can not be separated from the role of the burdened support system. The struggle to pursue the dream of a bachelor's degree at the end of her name did not take away from it. The effort to maintain sanity in which her environment asks her to get away from the world quickly. what can she do without this support system? she might go crazy without her support system.

    Maybe the support system is standard. Perhaps I'm exaggerating if I say, "the support system is one of my sanity saviors." Could imagine if he did not have a support system. What will he hope for if he has no ego, dreams, ideals, and pain if he does not have them? Maybe he wouldn't be writing now, and possibly his name was engraved on the tombstone instead of the college degree he dreamed of.

    Everyone's support system is different. Maybe for her, the support system doesn't have to be human, but if, for you, your 'support system' is human, keep it. A support system may be a trivial thing that is often spoken about but not seen. The support system may be there, but you don't feel it. One decision today is a new step tomorrow.                                                                     

My First Love

By : Elsa 

    I believe that we have something that we really like. Be it food, drink, color, someone, or lessons. I like many things, but I like the most are books, jasmine-scented tea, morning, and the color green. I enjoy reading, although lately I rarely touch books on my desk. I always like it when I open the window in the morning with the fresh air that fills my room. Acacia trees snaking across my house to the chirping of the morning birds. Sitting in my study chair with a cup of jasmine-scented tea served on the table. Then my hands unfolded the sheets of ink scribbled words that I hoped would satisfy my inner passion.

    Books are my first love. On my 5th birthday, my father gave me a book. I remember that my father gave me a bobo magazine. Since then, I have liked reading my mother's magazines, school books, and books I borrowed from the library. My favorite author is Buya Hamka; the first work I read was Tenggelamnya Kapal van der Wijck which I borrowed from my school library. I like the style of language, the letters Zainuddin wrote to Hayati, and vice versa. Likewise, his book "Merantau ke Deli" is full of life messages.

    There is also one book that left me deeply traumatized. A novel by Nawal El Saadawi entitled "Women at Zero Point." Nawal El Saadawi wrote this story based on the experiences of a woman from Qanaatir prison. A woman named Firdaus who I think leads a terrible life. Her life is like a ball in a game. She is not in control of herself. with a tragic ending when she was only trying to defend herself. how lousy life treats her. This book also opens a view of women's like Firdaus, who are often shunned by society.

    Through the scratches on each page, I can get to know new souls; I can go to places I've never been, I can even experience a life I never even imagined. Sometimes I am disappointed when my mind is not satisfied with the stories told. When I'm angry, I will read it over and over again.

    Maybe books are boring, obsolete, old-fashioned things. But with books, I feel my world is alive. Whatever you like, learn to take care of it, love it, whether from far or near.

Anxiety Disorder

 By : Wawan Kurniawan

    Anxiety disorder is a mental health disorder characterized by excessive feelings of worry, anxiety, and fear. Feeling anxious or nervous is a natural thing for everyone to feel when faced with certain situations that are considered uncomfortable. However, people with anxiety disorders tend to feel feelings of fear and anxiety excessively to interfere with daily activities. People with anxiety disorders will usually feel worried about various things, even when they are in normal situations.

There are several types of anxiety disorders, including:

1. Generalized anxiety disorder

         A person suffering from generalized anxiety disorder can feel anxious or excessively worried about various things, from work, health, to simple things, such as interacting with other people. This anxiety disorder can appear every day and interfere with activities. In addition to anxiety, people with a generalized anxiety disorder will also usually feel nausea, headaches, difficulty concentrating, shortness of breath, insomnia, easy tiredness, and tension.

 

2. Social Anxiety Disorder

         People with social anxiety disorder have a tremendous sense of anxiety or fear of the social environment in which they have to interact with other people. These things make the sufferer always try to avoid situations that require him to meet or interact with many people.

 

3. Phobia

         A phobia is a type of anxiety disorder that causes sufferers to have an excessive fear of certain objects, animals, or situations. Everyone has different phobias depending on the type of trauma they have experienced. People who have a phobia may experience panic attacks or intense fear when they see the thing that triggers the phobia.

 

4. PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder)

        Post-traumatic stress disorder or PTSD can occur in someone who has experienced a traumatic event. For example, someone who has been a victim of an earthquake or accident, then he survived. People who suffer from PTSD often find it difficult to forget the traumatic experience. These feelings then make him feel guilty, isolated, and difficult to socialize with other people. Sometimes, people who have PTSD can also experience insomnia and even depression.

 

5. Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

          People who suffer from OCD tend to do things over and over again to relieve the anxiety that comes from their minds. For example, when you are anxious, you always wash your hands more than 3 times because you always feel that your hands are still dirty. This disorder is difficult to control, is persistent, and can recur at any time.

 

6. Panic Disorder

          People with panic disorder usually feel afraid and panic for no apparent reason. Anxiety and panic attacks due to this disorder can appear at any time and occur suddenly. When panic disorder appears, sufferers can usually feel some other symptoms, such as palpitations, cold sweats, dizziness, shortness of breath, body shaking, and feeling weak.

Who is at Risk for Anxiety Disorders?

        A mix of genetic and environmental factors can increase a person's risk for developing an anxiety disorder. However, some people with the following conditions have a high risk of developing this disorder, such as:

1. Having certain personality traits, such as shyness or behavioral inhibition. Feeling uncomfortable and always avoiding unfamiliar people, situations, or environments.

2. A stressful or traumatic event in childhood or early adulthood.

3. Family history of anxiety or other mental health conditions.

4. Certain physical conditions, including thyroid problems and heart arrhythmias (unusual heart rhythms).

       Anxiety disorders are more common in women. Researchers are still studying why that happens. This may come from female hormones, especially those that fluctuate throughout the month. The hormone testosterone may also play a role in which men have more, thereby reducing anxiety. As already explained, feeling anxious is a natural thing and is not always interpreted as bad. However, the thing to watch out for is when feelings of anxiety continue to appear even though the triggering factor has disappeared. In this case, you should suspect an anxiety disorder. If feelings of anxiety appear excessively to interfere with activities, do not hesitate to ask a psychologist or psychiatrist for help to overcome them.

Symptoms or Characteristics of Anxiety Disorder

        A person suffering from this disorder usually has symptoms or characteristics that vary depending on the type of disorder experienced. However, common symptoms of an anxiety disorder include:

 

Physiological Symptoms

• cold or sweating

• Dry mouth

• Heart palpitations

• Nauseous

• Numbness or tingling in the hands or feet

• Muscle tension

• Hard to breathe

 

Mental Symptoms:

• Feeling panicky, afraid, and restless

• Nightmare

• Recurrent thoughts or flashbacks of traumatic experiences

• Uncontrollable obsessive thoughts

 

Behavioral symptoms:

• Inability to be still and calm

• Ritualistic behavior, such as washing hands repeatedly

• Difficulty sleeping

Insecure

 By: Ragil 

Who has ever felt insecure? I think everyone has experienced it, including me. In my opinion, insecurity is fear or inferiority that is created due to several factors such as fear of failure or rejection, what other people say to us, and who are definitely victims of bullying.

Fear of failure or rejection is not just because the person is not prepared for something, it could be that the person has failed at the same thing but instead of getting support from the closest people, but ridicule or become a joke. Shouldn't you as a close friend give support instead of laughing at his failure? It's good if the person who failed can get up to be better but if on the other hand, the person becomes insecure about his abilities and becomes a spectator of every activity.

Furthermore, the impact of bullying, the impact of bullying is very large on victims ranging from physical to mental victims which can make the person more closed, and not infrequently there are also those who choose to end their lives. I'm still confused about the exact reason someone is bullying. Some say for their own pleasure, there are also feelings of envy towards that person. I think if that's true then it's a stupid and unreasonable excuse.

And the last thing is to always listen to what other people have to say about us, not infrequently we always hear and even think about the negative words of others towards us, especially when the talk comes from those closest to us such as friends, teachers and even parents and siblings. It's true that people's words are not certain to corner us, but the selection of inappropriate words can lead to misunderstandings.

For people who always feel insecure, it's okay, it's a natural thing, as long as we can rise from that feeling. Memories of bitter experiences are not easy to forget but we can use them as motivation for ourselves to be better. Doing actions that harm ourselves is also not a way out of the problems we face. Think positive and always remember as many bad people around us, there is still God and good people who are always there.

Positive and negative responses are always present in every action we take, so don't get too hung up on negative responses, because there are still positive responses that we must appreciate. And lastly, make mistakes as lessons

You Will Never Know Your Limits Without Trying to Start

By : Jamaludin

Hai guys, eiits, do you know that sometimes we always feel insecure about the limits of our abilities? So, here I am, I want to convey that such things are natural and expected as human nature. But, there is an essential thing that you should know, that each of us has given its advantages and disadvantages. So, why do we grieve for our shortcomings? We should realize that it is not always the lack that makes us stagnant and cannot grow from the other things.

Well, I want to share a story with you guys, so I used to be an apathetic person. In the past, I didn’t want to know and care about the environment and didn’t want to take risks at all. Instead, I always stay in my comfort zone and relax. So, in the condition of being cornered and ostracized, I was once seen as unreliable and unresponsive. Well, this is a tight slap for me in response to their rude remarks. But, I don’t want to reply to their words that insult me, but I use it as a motivation to change myself.

Since Junior High School and Senior High School, I have used my study time as well as possible, not only regarding lessons at school but also organization. As a result, this is where my self-confidence began to emerge, and I became a stronger person. I started to try to participate in various competitions, exchange student activities, get out of my comfort zone, and always be open to receiving criticism and suggestions from others. Alhamdulillah, I never imagined in my mind that I could produce the best achievement so far, which I thought before, that there was no way I could be like my great friends. I give my most significant appreciation to myself.

The moral value is to try your best to do something that you think will not achieve and is impossible. Because basically, you will not know at all the limits of your ability without ever trying to start. You are being brave enough to try better than nothing.

Jakarta

 By: Mohammad Zacky

What do you think when you hear the city of Jakarta? a very busy city with a bustle that never stops. It's not stranger to hear that Jakarta is the busiest city in my mind. Living in Jakarta is one of the gifts that God has given to me. The love Jakarta gave to me is like a mother who gives pain and affection to his child. It seems that through Jakarta, God gave me a witness that life is something that needs to be fought for.

I have been grown up, but Jakarta always teaches something that makes me feel like I'm not fully grown up yet. According to some people, living in Jakarta is a sin that makes people reluctant to make Jakarta a part of their journey. How it is for me, Jakarta is a place where some people find their lost self. Do you want to know the love of Jakarta? it gave me pain nonstop, but what actually happened was which made my heart feel more calm for dealing with the pain.

Jakarta is a hope that returns to some people. It is the hope that has been killed by the family and the feelings that make this city as mother in the eyes of some people. Jakarta makes us never give up pursuing what we dream of, unlike ourselves who often break those hopes. The frenzy of society makes some people feel that the hopes they have broken themselves are reborn. Do you know who kept me going? Jakarta

Talking about the people of Jakarta who have never been lost by time, who have never thought whether their souls will weaken when the city lights are turned on. Indeed, our hearts may doubt whether Jakarta is really our travel companion, but the city of Jakarta will not leave a warm story that keeps the soul alive in its hopes in this city of love.

The hope that was lost may not return, but Jakarta has always been a hope for everyone. A city that will not leave everyone behind, a city that does not know time and a city that is not weak knows that the city lights are getting brighter. Maybe jakarta according to some people is despair but for me jakarta is the one who saves me when I'm weak. Jakarta is still strong without me but I will not be strong without Jakarta.